time enough for love-时间足够你爱(英文版)-第63部分

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e　he　invited　her　to　share　his　bed；　Tamara　herself　found　new　interest　in　living。　She　lived　with　Lazarus　long　enough　to　heal　his　spirit；　then　announced　that　she　was　leaving。　To　apply　for　rejuvenation。〃
　　
　　I　said；　〃Lazarus　asked　her　to　marry　him。〃
　　
　　〃I　don't　think　so；　Justin；　and　neither　Tamara　nor　Lazarus　hinted　at　such。　Tamara　put　it　another　way；　entirely。　We　were　all　having　a　late　breakfast；　in　the　garden　of　the　Palace　penthouse；　when　Tamara　asked　Ira　if　she　could　join　his　migration…it　was　solely　Ira's　migration　then；　Lazartis　had　said　repeatedly　that　he　would　not　'join　it。　I　think　he　abeady　had　in　mind　attempting　to　time…trip。　Ira　told　Tamara　to　consider　it　settled　and　not　to　worry　about　restrictions　that　would　be
　　
　　published　when　he　announced　it。　Justin；　Ira　would　have　given　her　the　Palace　as　readily；　she　had　saved　Lazarus；　and　we　all　knew　it。
　　
　　〃But　'you　know　Tamara。　She　than？ed　him　but　said　she　intended　to　qualify　fully；　starting　with　rejuvenation；　then　she　would　see　what　she　could　learn　to　be　useful　in　a　colony；　just　as　Hamadryad　planned　to…and；　Hamadryad；　swill　you　sleep　with　Lazarus　tonight？…and　Justin；　you　should　have　heard　the　motion　that　started！〃
　　
　　〃Why　a　motion？〃　I　asked。　〃From　what　you　said　earlier　Lazarus　had　reacquired　his　interest　in　the　friendly　sport。'　Did　Hamadryad　have　some　reason　not　to　want　to　substitute　for　Tamara？〃
　　
　　〃Hamadryad　was　willing；　although　upset　by　the　way　Tamara　dumped　the　matter　on　her…〃
　　
　　〃Doesn't　sound　like　Tamara。　If　Hamadryad　hadn't　wanted　to　do　it；　Tamara　would　'have　known　it　without　asking。〃
　　
　　〃Justin；　when　it　es　to　people's　emotions；　Tamara　always　knows　what　she　is　doing。　It　was　Lazarus　she　was　trapping；　not　Hamadryad。　Our　Ancestor　has　oddshynesses；　or　did　have　then。　He　had　been　sleeping　with　Tamara　for　a　month…and　pretending　that　he　was　not。；　As　futile　as　a　cat　covering　up　on　a　tile　floor。　But　Tamara's　blandly　blunt　request　that　Hamadryad　relieve　her　as　his　concubine　forced　it　into　the　open　and　produced　a　head…on　clash　of　wills；　Lazarus　and　Tamara。　Justin；　you　know　them　both：　Who　won？〃
　　
　　The　ancient　pseudoparadox…　That　Tamara　could　be　immovable　I　knew。　〃I　won't　guess；　Galahad。〃
　　
　　〃Neither　just　then；　because　once　Lazarus　stopped　sputter。　ing　about　how　both　he　and　Hamadryad　were　being　needlessly　embarrassed；　Tamara　gently　withdrew　her　suggestion；　then　shut　up。　Shut　up　on　that；　shut　up　about　rejuvenation；　shut　up　about　migrating；　left　the　next　move　up　to　Lazarus　and　won　the　argument　by　not　arguing。　'Justin；　it　is　difficult　to　kick　Tamara　out　of　one's　bed…〃
　　
　　〃I　would　find　it　impossible。〃
　　
　　〃I　think　Lazarus　found　it　so。　What　discussions　they　had　in　the　middle　of　the　night　I　could　not　say　。　。　but　Lazarus　learned
　　
　　that　she　would　not　leave　for　rejuvenation　until　he　promised　never　to　sleep　alone　while　she　was　gone。　But　she　promised　in　exchange　to　return　to　his　bed　as　sOon　as　she　pleted　antigeria。　'
　　
　　〃So　one　morning　Lazarus　announced　the　d閠ente…red…faced
　　
　　and　almost　stuttering。　Justin；　our　Ancestor's'　true　age　shows　snore　in　some　of　his　ancient　attitudes　about　sex　than　in　any　other　way。〃
　　
　　〃I　didn't　notice　it　last　night；　Qalahad…and　I　expected　to；　having　studied　his　memoirs　so　closely。〃
　　
　　〃Yes　but　you　saw　him　last　night　some　fourteen　years　after　we　set　up　our　family…as　it　was　that　morning　that　did　it。　Although　we　did　not　formalize　it　until　after　the　twins　were　born；　whereas　at　this　time　they　were　slight　bulges　at　most。　Believe　me；　Lazarus　found　it　hard　to　capitulate…and　tried　for　an　escape　hole　even　then。　He　announced；　rather　aggressively；　that　he　had　promised　Tamara　not　to　sleep　alone　while　she　was　undergoing　antigeria；　then　said；　more　or　less　in　these　words：　'Ira；　you　told　me　that　professional　ladies　were　to　be　found　in　the　city。　How　do　I　go　about　finding　one　who　will　accept　a　contract　for　that　length　of　time？'　I　have　to　quote　him　in　English　as　he　was　using　euphemisms　he　ordinarily　disdains。
　　
　　〃What　Lazarus　didn't　know　was　that　Ishtar　had　programmed　us　like　actors　hypnotized　into　roles。　Perhaps　you've　noticed　that　he　is　responsive　to　female　tears？〃
　　
　　〃Isn't　everyone？　I've　noticed。〃
　　
　　〃Ira；　pretended　not　to　know　what　profession　Lazarus　meant　。　。　which　gave　Hamadryad　time　to　burst　into　tears　and　flee　。　。　whereupon　Ishtar　stood　up　and　said；　'Grandfather　。　。　how　could　you？…and　she　was　dripping　tears；　too　。　。　and　chased　after　Hamadryad。　Then　it　was　Tamara's　turn　to　switch　on　the　the　raindrops　and　follow　the　other　two。　Which　left　us　three　men　together。
　　
　　〃Ira　became　very　formal　and　said；　'If　you　will　excuse　me；　Sire；　I　will　attempt　to　find　and　consol~　my　daughter'…　bowed；　turned　abruptly；　and　left。　Which　left　it　up　to　me。　Justin；　I　didn't　know　what　to　do。　I　knew　that　Ishtar　expected　difficulty　because　Tamara　had　warned　her。　But　I　did　not　expect　to　be　left　to　juggle　it　alone。
　　
　　〃Lazarus　said；　'Great　balls　of　fire！　Son；　what　did　I　do　now？'　Well；　I　could　answer　that。　I　said；　'Grandfather；　you've　hurt　Hamadryad's　feelings。'
　　
　　〃Then　I　was　carefully　unhelpful…refused　to　speculate　why　her　feelings　were　hurt；　could　not　guess　where　she　might'　have　gone…unless　she　had　gone　home；　which　I　understood　was　somewhere　in　the　suburbs…declined　to　act　as　his　intermediary…ail　to　Ishtar's　instructions　to　play　dumb；　stupid；　and　useless；　and　let　the　women　handle　it。　'
　　
　　〃So　Lazarus　had　to　track　Hamadryad　down　himself；；　which　he　did　with　Athene's…I　mean　'Minerva's'…help。〃
　　
　　Athene　said；　〃This　is　all　news　to　me；　Uncle　Cuddly。〃
　　
　　〃If　it　is；　dear；　please　forget　it。〃
　　
　　〃Oh；　I　shall！〃　the　puter　answered。　〃Except　that　I'm　going　to　save　it　up　and　use　it　about　a　hundred　years　from　now。　Justin；　if　I　burst　into　tears…after　I'm　a　flesh…andblood…will　you　track　me　down　and　console　me？〃
　　
　　〃Probably。　Almost　certainly。〃
　　
　　〃I'll　remember　that；　Lover　Boy。　You're　cute。〃　…
　　
　　I　pretended　not　to　hear；　but　Galahad　said；　〃'Lover　Boy'？〃
　　
　　〃That's　what　I　said；　dear。　Sorry；　Uncle　Cuddly；　but　you're　obsolete。　If　you　hadn't　gone　to　sleep　early；　you　would　know　why。〃
　　
　　I　kept　quiet　while；_making　a；；　mental　note　for　a　hundred　_；years　henc~…one　that　involved　Pallas　Athene　as　a　flesh…and~bIood　and　getting　her　into　a　helpless　position。　…
　　
　　This　side　conversation　was　cut　short；　Athene　notified　us　that　Lazarus　was　arriving。　Galahad　waved　his　arms。　〃Hey！　Pappy！　Back　here！〃
　　
　　〃ing。〃　Lazarus　bussed　me　in　passing；　did　so　to　Galahad　as　he　slid　in　by　him　and　grabbed　what　was　left　of　Galahad's　second　breakfast…a　home…baked　jam　roll…stuffed　it　into　his　mouth　and　said　around　it：　〃Well？　Did　he　fight　the　hook？〃
　　
　　〃Not　nearly　the　way　you　did　with　Hamadryad；　Pappy。　I　was　telling'　Justin　about　that…how　the　Hamadarling　tripped　you　and　thereby　set　up　our　family。〃
　　
　　〃My　God；　what　a　canard！〃　Lazarus　helped　himself　to　Galahad's　hot…cup。　〃Justin；　Galahad　is　a　sweet　lad　but　ro~　mantic。　I　knew　exactly　what　I　wanted　to　acplish；　so　I　started　by　raping　Hamathyad。　That　broke　down　her　resistance；　and　now　she　sleeps　with　anybody；　even　Galahad。　Everything　else　followed　in　logical　sequence。〃　He　added；　〃You　still　plan　to　go　back　to　Secundus？〃
　　
　　I　answered；　〃Perhaps　I　didn't　understand　what　Galahad　has　been　telling　me。　I　thought　I　was　mitting　myself；　in　joining；　to…〃　I　stopped。　〃Lazarus；　I　don't　know　what　I'm　mitted　to；　and　I　don't　know　what　I'm　joining。〃
　　
　　Lazarus　nodded。　〃One　must　make　allowances　for　youth；　Justin；'Galahad　doesn't　speak　clearly　as　yet。〃
　　
　　〃Thanks；　Pappy。　Too　much。　I　sold　him　the　deal。　Now　you've　got　him　wondering。〃
　　
　　〃Quiet；　Son。　Let　me　spell　it　out；　Justin。　What　you　are
　　
　　joining　is　a　family。　What　you　are　mitted　to　is　the　welfare　of　the　children。　All　of　them；　not　just　any　that　you　may　sire。〃　He　looked　aP　me；　waited。
　　
　　I　said；　〃Lazarus；　I've　raised　a　number　of　children…〃
　　
　　〃I　know。〃
　　
　　〃I　don't　think　I've　let　one　down　yet。　Very　well；　three　that　I　haven't　seen；　plus　your　two…your　sisters　or　adopted　daughters…plus　others　as　they　e　along。　Correct？〃
　　
　　〃Yes。　But　it's　not　a　lifetime　mitment；　that's　not　practical　for　a　Howard。　This　family　may　outlive　us　all…I　hope　so。　But　an　adult　can　opt　out　anytime　and　thereby　be　mitted；；　only　to　kids　then　on　hand…underfoot　or　in　womb。　Call　it　a　maximum　of　eighteen　years。　HoWever；　I　assume　that　the　rest　of　the　family　would　prefer　to　relieve　such　a　'person　of　his　or　her　responsibilities　in　order　to　see　the　back；　of　his　neck。　I　can't　envision　a　happy　relationship　continuing　for　years　after　someone　has　announced　that　he　wants　out。　Can　you？〃
　　
　　〃Well　。　。　no。　But　I　won't　let　it　worry　me。〃
　　
　　〃Of　course　it　might　not　happen　that　way。　Suppose　Ishtar　and　Galahad　decided　to　set　up　a　separate　household…〃
　　
　　〃Now　wait　one　fiddlin'　minute；　Pappy！　Yoti　can't　get　rid　of　me　that　easily！　Ish　won't　have　me　except　as　part　of　the　package。　I　know；　I　tried　to　get　her　to　marry　me　years　back。〃
　　
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　　〃…and　wanted　to　take　our　three　youngest　with　them。　We　would　not　stop　them　nor　would　we　try　to　dissuade　children　who　preferred　to　go　with　them。　All　three　of　them　are　Galahad's…〃
　　
　　〃There　he　goes　again！　Pappy；　you　put　Undine　into　Ish　in　the　soak　pool；　that's　why　we　named　her　that。'　Elf　is　either　yours　or　Ira's；　the　Hamadear　told　me　so。　'And　nobody　has　any　doubt　about　Andrew　Jackson。　Justin；　I'm　sterile。〃
　　
　　〃…based　on　statistical　probability；　both　on　sperm　count　and　the　fact　that　he　keeps　so　busy　at　it。　But　Ishtar　reads　the　gene　charts　and　keeps　such　matters　to　herself；　we　prefer　it　that　way。　But　it　is　extremely　unlikely　that　Hamadryad　ever　said　that；　or　that　she　has　or　ever　will　have　a　child　by　Ira。　No　geic　hazard；　Ishtar　is　certain。　And　the　fact　that　we　have　yet　to　have　any　defectives　in　this　colony　gives　me　great　confidence　in　Ishtar's　skill　in　reading　a　gene　chart；　she　screened　the　first　wave；　a　job　that　gave　her　eyestrain　for　months。　Nevertheless；　Ira　has　some　unease　about　it　and　won't　even　stand　close　to　Hamadryad　when　she　is　fertile…an　irrational　attitude　I　understand；　as　I　am　cursed　with　it　myself。
　　
　　I　remember　too　well　a'　time　in　the　past　when　all　the　Howards　had　to　go　on　was　percentage　of　mutual　ancestry…and　got　defe鐃ives　all　too　often。　Of　course　today　a　woman　with　a　clean　gene　chart　is　better　off　married　to　her　biother　than　to　a　stranger　from　another　pla…but　old　ghosts　die　hard。
　　
　　〃What　it　amounts　to；　Justin；　is　three　fathers…four；　with　you…three　mothers；　~but　four　when　Minerva　asks　to　have　her　adolescence　protection　canceled…an　ever…changing　number　of　kids　to　be　taught　and　spanked　and　loved…plus　always　the　possibility　of　the　number　of　parents　being　either　enhanced　or　diminished。　But　this　is　my　house；　in　my　name；　and　I've　kept　it　that　way　because　I　planned　it　to　house　one　family；　not　to　make　life　jolly　for　goats　such　as　Galahad…〃
　　
　　〃But　it　does！　Thank　you；　Pappy　darling。〃
　　
　　〃…but　for　the　welfare　of　children。　I've　seen　catastrophe　strike　colonies　that　looked　as　safe　as　this　one。　Justin；　a　disaster　could　wipe~　out　all　but　one　'mother　and　father　in　this　family；　and　our　kids　would　still　grow　up　normally　and　happily。　This　is　the　only　long…run　purpose　of　a；tan~ily。　We　think　our　setup　insures　that　purpose　more　than　a　one…couple　family　can。　When　you　join；　you　mit　yourself　to　that　purpose…that's　all。〃
　　
　　I　took　a　deep　breath。　〃Where　do　I　sign？〃
　　
　　〃I　see　no　use　in　written　marriage　contracts；　they　'can't　be　enforced　。　。　whereas　if　the　partners　want　to　make　it　work；　no　written　instrument　is　necessary。　If　you　seriously　want　to　join　us；　a　nod　of　your　head　is　enough。〃
　　
　　〃I　do！〃
　　
　　〃…or　if　you　want　ritual；　Laz　and　Lor　would　be　delighted　to　dream　up　a　fancy　one…and　we　can　all　have　a　crying　jag　together…〃
　　
　　〃…and　on　his　wedding　night　Justin　gets　to　sleep　With　the　babies　so　he'll　know　how　serious　it　is。〃
　　
　　〃Seal　it；　Galahad。　If　you　want　to　add　that　touch；　you　should　make　it　the　night　before；　so　he'll　have　a　fair　chance　to　back　out　if　he　can't　take　it。〃
　　
　　〃Lazarus；　I　volunteer　for　the　diaper　watch　tonight；　I'm　hardened　to　such　things。〃
　　
　　〃I　doubt　if　the　women　will　let　you。〃
　　
　　〃And　you　won't　live　till　morning；〃　Galahad　added。　〃They're　an　emotional　lot。　Last　night　you　had　it　easy。　Better　take　the　pee　watch。〃
　　
　　〃Galahad　could　be　right；　I　should　check　your　heart。　As　may　be…keep　quiet；　Galahad…Justin；　this　household　is　not
　　
　　a　jail。　The　setup　is　not　only　safer　for　children；　it　is　more　flexible　for　adults。　When　I　asked　you　whether　you　intended　to　go　back　'to　Secundus；　I　meant　simply　that。　An　adult　can　be　away　for　a　year；　ten　years；　any　length　of　time　for　any　purpose…and　know　that　the　kids　are　taken　care　of　and　know　that　he…she　will　be　Weled　back。　The　twins　and　I　have　been　off…pla　several　times　and　will　be　again。　And　…　。　well；　you　know　I　intend　to　attempt　this　time…tripping　experiment。　That　won't　involve　much　elapsed　time　in　this　framework
　　
　　but　it　does　involve　a　slight　element　of　risk。〃
　　
　　〃Slight！'　Meaning　that　Pappy　is　out　of　his　silly　head。　Be　sure　to　'kiss　him　good…bye　when　he　leaves；　Justin；　he　won't　be　back。〃
　　
　　I　was　alarmed　to　see　that　Galahad　waa　not　joking。　Lazarus　said　quietly；　〃Galahad；　it　is　all　right　to　say　that　to　me。　But　don't　say　it　in　front　of　the　women。　Or　children。〃　He　went　on　to　me；　〃Of　course　there　is　an　element　of　risk；　there　is　in　anything。　But　not　to　a　time　trip　itself；　as　Galahad　seems　to　think。〃　（Galahad　shuddered。）　〃The　risk　is　the　same　as　in　visiting　any　pla；　someone　there　may　not　like　you。　But　the　time　jump　takes　place　in　the　safest　possible　surroundings：　in　space　with　a　ship　around　you…any　risk　es　later。〃
　　
　　Lazarus　grinned。　〃That's　why　I　was　so　riled　at　that　old　cow　Arabelle…telhing　me　to　go　look…see　at　battles！　Justin；　the　best　thing　about　modern　times　is　that　we　are　all　so　spread　apart　that　war　is　no'　longer　practical。　But…　Did　I　tell　you　what　I'm　going　to　use　as　a　practice　run？〃
　　
　　〃No。　I　had　the　impression　from　Madam　Chairman　Pro　Tern　that　you　already　had　a　perfected　technique。〃
　　
　　〃It's　possible　that　I　let　her　think　so。　But　Arabelle　wouldn't　know　an　imperial　number　from　an　imperial　edict；　she　couldn't　ask　the　right　questions。〃
　　
　　〃I　don't　think　1　could　either；　Lazarus；　it's　not　my　field　of　mathematics。〃
　　
　　〃If　you're　interested；　Dora　can　teach　you…〃
　　
　　〃Or　ale；　Lover　Boy。〃
　　
　　〃Or　Teena。　What's　the　idea　of　calling　Justin　'Lover　Boy；'　Teena？　Are　you　trying　to　seduce　him？〃
　　
　　〃No；　he's　promised　to　seduce　me　。　。　about　a　hundred　years　from　now。〃
　　
　　Lazarus　looked　at　me　thoughtfully；　I　tried　to　look　as　if　I　hadn't　heard　the　exchange。　〃Mmm　。　。　maybe　you　had；　better　take　those　lessons　from　Dora；　Justin。　You　haven't　met　Dora；　but　think　of　her　as　about　eight　years　old；　she　won't　try　to
　　
　　seduce　you。　But　she's　the　brighted　puter　pilot　in　space　and　can　teach　you　more　than　you　want　to　know　about　Libby　field　transformations。　I　was　saying　that　we　felt　sure　of　the　theory；　but　I　wanted　a　separate　opinion。　So　I　thought　of　asking　Mary　Sperling…〃
　　
　　I　said；　〃Hold　it　a　moment！　Lazarus；　in　all　the　Arch